hello. My name is Never. Never neverman. Neverman like “silverman” and not like “superman.” I do not like my last name. I didn’t choose it. Not really. But to exist online, like on socials or whatever you have to have a unique name. But Never is always taken by people who don’t use it, and I’ve never been a fan of adding a bunch of numbers or characters after my name to differentiate it. So Never Neverman it was. But please, if this actually exists for you, no. Sorry. If I exist when you read this, please refer to me as Never.

So what is this place and what will you find here. No wait. What or why? What or why? What is me. Why is must. Sorry. It’s loud here sometimes. I don’t like it. I know this might be hard to follow. I’m making this; writing this because I must. If I didn’t do this I would REDACTEDREDACTED REDACTED  sooner than has been determined. I’m starting to regret this. Why can’t I erase any of this? I’m not sure if that covers why, really. I’ve always wanted to. But I’ve been to afraid. Being afraid is kinda “my thing” if that’s a thing someone could have. I’m more mentally ill than most people understand. Or are willing to confront on a regular basis or be around. I’ve found that a lot of people who talk about their anxiety don’t like me because my situation trivializes theirs and people need an outlet to feel bad about themselves without being made to feel bad for feeling bad, you know what I mean? And I notice people feeling bad about being anxious when I say I haven’t left the house in three months and thinking about doing so causes me to break into hives and cry uncontrollably. I don’t resent anybody. Life isn’t a pain competition. Its relative to us as individuals. But still, people be how they be. What was I… oh right. Well look I think that covers why.

I’m ### and have to get this out. I’ve always wanted to… something or other. That’s what I’m told. FEEL! Sorry that’s what I feel. Ya. OK so what. What is next. If for some reason you want to know more About Me its around here somewhere.

What is this? Well its like a blog I guess. I’ve been told its a staging ground but I don’t know what that means. I just think it’s a place for me to share my thoughts on anything. Mostly video games. I do play a lot of them. They help to pull my mind away from… where it usually resides. What? Oh sorry. Sorry about the ellipses I know some people don’t like them. Also I don’t think I should have said that staging ground thing. Forget I said that. I would delete it but things get #####^& when I try to do that. “I’m not the one who edits” is what ###%$^&$&* says to me. So ya just a blog I guess. I’ll share my poetry and whatever else I feel like I didn’t.. N)I{o I didnt’ say it lk ;op op;l;lloook look just look its not there i did’;t say it they don’t knpow pleaese pleaseplsaesalpsaelsaelplesalep——-se I feel like writing. Maybe a recipe. I like to cook. Or he does. Or I do. I DO. Yes. I do. I have a feeling this may be too inaccessible but I’m not sure what that means. K love you byeeeeee.